
I was debating whether I was going to post anything this year but decided that it was important because this day is apart of us - whether we like it or not. Today would be Jael's third birthday.
The last few weeks leading up to this day have been hard. I thought that this year would be easier but it doesn't seem to be the case. Memories of the month and the day and the funeral come rushing back (I guess because I suppress much of it throughout the year.). Conor got up this morning and told me that he "hated today." He said that the day makes him sad. He is much like his mom and does not talk about it, so I am glad that he voiced what he was feeling. On the other hand Mackensey wants to talk about it all of the time. In fact, the other day she told me that she and Conor have been talking and that they want another brother or sister - now that was funny! Seriously, she loves and adores the babies at our church and in our young couples group. It really breaks my heart at times to watch her and know what a great help she would have been. She would have adored her sister.
Today we will go down to our favorite spot, Maple Bay, and release some balloons in her memory and we will thank God for the blessings that he has given us.


















